Say no more...

Similar to an alcoholic that can't stop drinking, I can't stop blogging. It's eating at me.

After I did my last post, I got so many nice emails sent to me directly about themselves or family members that were suffering from a mental illness and who enjoyed my blog. 

It looks like my blog attracted a lot of crazy people. In all seriousness, I was really touched.

As I mentioned previously, I stopped the blog to help me focus on some other goals, which I am doing. Just in the last week I found myself being able to do what I needed to do and still had time left over to blog if I needed to.

There is four things that are tugging at me to keep the blog going. The first is I like doing it. The second is people like reading it. The third is I want to try and make money off it and the fourth is I don't want to let the terrorists win. 

The blog is never going to make any real money, I get that. It would just be nice to make enough to that it covers some of the beer and triathlon expenses. 

One big reason I stopped the blog was because some people who read it I don't want reading it. There is some people I know personally that don't deserve to be part of my life for one reason or another, it bothers me that they know anything that goes on in my life.

They are the lurkers. I know who they are and they know who they are. If your asking yourself if your one of those people, you'll know by asking yourself, do I get along with him or did I have a falling out with him? If you answered yes, you are a lurker.

As my new career position is Internet based marketing, I also justified potentially starting back up the blog as a form of education for myself and a way to experiment with new Internet technology and marketing techniques. Can you tell I'm really working on the justification to keep the blog going?

I've got to say, this past two weeks has been great. I've been very work focused and training has been solid. It's been a nice ebb and flow.

Being able to work from home is good and bad. The good is there is flexibility and the bad is there is flexibility. What I've found helpful is making some goal commitments and bringing structure to my day. 

My office is at the end of my couch. First thing I do is get up, force myself to shower, have my breakfast and by 9 am I'm at the office. I've then set my day up in blocks of time, no different than training and have posted those blocks of time on my calendar. Each block of time is set up to handle a task, again, no different than training for triathlons.

In between the work tasks, I have blocks of personal time that I can do training or whatever. Something that will clear my head. If I didn't have those forced blocks of personal time, I'd work all day and night. I've done it. It's so easy to take Ironman focus and get work imbalanced and then mentally imbalanced.

So I guess I'm back blogging, and yes I guess you can call me Bryan Farvre. For those that don't know Brett Farvre, he's the football player that keeps coming out of retirement. 

I have to let you know the final decision to blog or not came down to how I make most of my most important decisions, I flipped a coin. Heads, use your head and don't blog. Tails, use your heart and blog. 

I've also had to make some changes in the way I blog. Believe it or not, I used to proof read my posts VERY carefully. I was always shocked when someone would say they caught a spelling or grammar problem. I thought I caught it all. 

That proof reading took up a lot of my time, it was probably as long if not longer than the original blog post would take. From now on, I'll run spell check, but I won't be proof reading. So you may have to improvise from time to time and figure out what I was trying to say. 

I'm also going to put a time limit on myself. Some of my blog posts were taking a couple of hours. It's that perfectionist and all or nothing guy in me.

And finally, I'm going to use less quotation marks. They slowed me down and it seems I've been teased about them enough to know it's probably no big deal to use them or not use them.

Nov 9 - Bike 1:40:21

Nov 10 - Run 45:02

Nov 11 - Weight 45:00

Nov 12 - Swim 44:30

Nov 13 - Bike 1:01:33

Nov 14 - Run 1:08:30

Nov 15 - Bike 1:44:38

Nov 16 - Run 41:12