Reflection...

For the past two days all we've had on the TV is old video's that I got put on DVD. All I hear is Reid laughing, he's hooked on watching them, we have about 50 hours. I've noticed myself reflecting on those times. Watching them really makes me realize how short life is. In some of the video's my parents are as old as I am now, that really puts it in a different perspective. It is also interesting to see everyone evolve; different clothes, different hair cuts, different body shapes and different ages. Yet everyone seems to have maintained the same maturity level, strange, but good. I have video of Alyssa at two years old and now she is 18 years old, time flies. What I'm finding is that each era is like a different life time. When I look at the video's there seems to be a 3-5 year period that is one lifetime and then to evolves into the next 3 - 5 year period that is another lifetime. For me, I think I look much better now than I did then, I should have shaved the moustache off long ago and kept in better shape. Oh well, better late than never.

It's also great seeing the people that are no longer alive, like Alice's parents and my grandmother. Seeing Reid and Alyssa with them is great. For Reid, he idolizes Alice's dad and was really to little to know him, so it's great when he sees himself on his grandpa's knee. Reid just can't get enough of watching himself. He's now realizing that he never talked and when he did, he mumbled. He said he used to think no one listened to him, now he realized no one could understand him. I think it was an eye opener for him. 

Alyssa watches it as she does her homework and every once in a while she looks up and starts laughing at herself. I think we all have memories of how we think things were and when you see the video it's different. I always thought I was tough on the kids, but in the video's I'm pretty darn good with them. I was very gentle and confidence building. I'm definitely tougher on them now.

I think watching these video's is going to effect my behaviors and approach moving forward. I'm realizing how fast life travels and how important it is relish every day and I see the joys in the simple things, like Christmas, Birthday's and our Halloween Parties with Family. My only regret is that I didn't get more video and that I didn't video for the past six years. This year I just bought a video camera and I'm back recording everything. I remember how much my family got annoyed with me videoing them years ago and now I can tell they appreciate it.

On my run tonight I thought a lot about this. That's the one great thing about endurance exercise, you really have time to think. My run tonight felt great. I was encouraged to see my time go down to the sub 8 minute per mile pace, even though I only got 6 hours of sleep last night.

Tempo Run - 51:36 / 6.72 miles / 7:40 pace / HR 140 (85%) 146 Max (3%)

182.8 lbs / 22.7 bmi